Ummm.....

I was deep in love and
I was deeper in lust
You made me jump with joy
you made me sulk with sorrow
I could see you in pain
But you couldn't see mine
I am not complaining that you
didn't understand me,
I am just letting you go...
you meant the world but
Your not mine
Your someone else's problem
now...
No more sorries
No more pardon's
Time to get the knives out
Not for the chords but for the cords
Its too late now that our winter is here
When summer arrives Everything will melt away...

A fine line

I feel There exists a fine line between a friend and a boy/girlfriend...
the most interesting aspect about this fine line is its so thin that you tend or incline to cross over or get confused which side you are on...
Its when you realize that you are on the wrong side or the side you don't wish to be on you experience a roller coaster ride of emotions and actions that lead to adverse effects not only between the two people but also on the people and environment one lives in as we know that the energy flow from an entity has effects on its surroundings...

Two ways

There are two ways a relationship builds...
one is through understanding each other well and by compromising and arguing at the right places...

The second one is wherein one builds the understanding by arguing, by making mistakes and finding out more about the person...

This doesnt mean one doesnt understand the other in the first scenario, the difference is the amount of mental stress one goes through while building up the relationship or trying to maintain a stability for the second case

Its rather at the hands of the two people or group of people who are involved to decide what to do....

The New Team

It refers to the biotech team at MVJCE...

It started with the addition of Mr Sham... then cam along Mrs Madz
then came our bakku look a like otherwise referred to as grandpa/thata
then cam the gang of Dr Pratz, Dr jo n Mr lingu pingu...
finally came Ms Isha...

but then we thoughts thats all the gift box had...

Two types....

There are two types of people
those who help and those who need the help...
The best part is you get to play both the roles;
And the outcome of how well you play these roles decide the emotions and environment around you
Happy or Sober

The choice is yours

All that you need is a Fist size........

All that takes is the heart.....
Yes whatever you do and whatever you wish to do all it takes is your fist sized organ....

medically looking at it the heart has nothing to do with decision making.... But when you look at it in the emotional way the heart does everything
From falling in love to feeling shit scared....

So the whole point here is calm your heart give it a nice pat say "ALL IZZ WELL"
and go ahead with what you want to do
In the end either you will end up with a grand success at what you were trying to accomplish or end up starting from scratch again Remember
" Success is not Final
Failure is not fatal, But it is the courage to continue that counts"

so when you dint achieve go back and start over.... I know it pisses us off but then what made you to work on something that led you to the failure

think about it when you initially made the decision to go ahead with it what was going through your heart... what was your heart whispering to you
can you hear it again can you hear it shouting out now asking you to do it again
asking you to see where you went wrong.....

So remember come what may always keeping moving towards your goal....
" If you cant run then walk, If you cant walk then crawl, If you cant crawl find a way to move ahead, but keep moving towards your goal"

Working for the Honey

" Keep yourself Busy with something or the other, Because a busy person never has time to be unhappy"

This is from my recent experience wherein I realized the above quote.... till a couple of weeks I spent the time I had with two of my friends (a lot i guess)....
during that time all I did was to keep them and myself happy....
but then something happened which made me realize, Frankly speaking when I was there to help them they weren't there to lend me a hand when I needed...

likewise once you realize that what your doing is not worth I presume you stop so I did.

Then it occurred to me that I had loads of time, which I am making productive use of and in turn has made me happier than before...

So keep yourself busy in one way or the other....

A new chapter Begins....

As I became a year older I learnt more than I expected....

come to think of it my birthdays are opportunities I get to learn more about the environment I live in....

What is the whole Point of a birthday...

1> Is it to remind you that you are still alive and to look into the past and see if you have made any difference to people around you ???

2> Or is to enjoy the day you were born to be happy for one whole day so that you can forget about your past ??

At times you know the problem is small or petty but when at certain point of your life it is as huge as a mammoth....

May be this is religion.....

After see this movie recently I felt mathematics and religion are the same


assume this suppose you have a mathematical problem....
and mathematics is at such a level that you can find the answer in more the one way
now replace the words answer with GOD and mathematics to religion

so you can use any number of method to solve the problem...
now depending on the method you use is directly related to the time you use to find the answer..... you use simple addition subtraction or you can use calculus
the same way you can follow any religion but the answer the GOD is always the same....

Is this how One feels when he doesn't know if he is in love with a friend or
he loves her for shes a friend

How do i find out ???

An Example For Example

fondly referred to as Bakku or Bakkuma......

Is one of the best examples for what extent someone will go if they love someone a lot.....

she lost her son when her granddaughter was close to 3 years....
from then on she was living only for one person i.e her granddaughter.
bakku had COPD since the time she lost her sons......
she survived with COPD for close to 18 years before she reached the gates of heaven.

She left us all on 7th of jan two days after her granddaughters Birthday

she waited for her Exams to get over too....

she was a methodological person.... everything she did she did it in style
from getting the things going around the house to her every own life.....

people who have been with her could tell you more
all though I know her for a year shes taught me a lot and has left a wonderful impression on me....

As it is said experience can not be explained only experienced
same way you must have experienced and her granddaughter my friend has experienced a lot has had a wonderful time

her loss is our loss
our loss is the loss to the society......